Lets get serious

Okay so it's time to get serious.
I mean I have been doing this since January. I have had ample time to figure out the point system and how to use the app and website. That is not my problem.
Nooo my problem is I am not taking this seriously.
Let me start at the beginning: my sister, who is more than my sister, she is my soul mate (not the romantic kind obviously!) decided she needed to make a change and that she was going to join Weight Watchers. Another childhood friend has had great success with the program, so she decided to give it a shot as nothing else was working for her.
I decided to join so she would have some support, someone to commiserate with when she gained instead of lost, or went over board on the nacho platter. Someone to cheer for her and do a happy dance when she lost weight, and hey if I was losing too even better!!!
So yeah I wanted to join Weight Watchers to help my sister be successful and to maybe lose some of my unwanted weight too. The only problem is I didn't really commit. I see that now. I committed to helping her, but not to helping myself.
I look at my tracking and I see more gains then loses. I see all the times when I just didn't give a you know what, and ate whatever I wanted. I still tracked it but I was obviously not doing myself any favors.
Then my sons birthday came around. He wanted a very specific cake. A seed cake. I had never made one before so I did a test cake. It was very dry, in the end, in my attempts to make a seed cake that wasn't like drywall, I made 5 test cakes. and yes my family and I ate all five. This happened over a week and a half! 5 seed cakes plus the 2 actual seed cakes for his party and then a regular birthday cake because we decided seed cake with frosting would not be an awesome combo.
THAT'S A LOT OF CAKE PEOPLE!
Plus all the candy in the pinata and fruit snacks and cheese, root beers, grapes, crackers, mushrooms, ice cream, oh man we had so much food!!! (It was a hobbit themed birthday party if you haven't guessed yet!)
So yeah needless to say I didn't even bother to track for the last two weeks. I know I know bad bad bad! And I ate more junk than I should have, than I would have if I had been tracking.
On the bright side I only gained 1 pound 4 ounces. On the other hand, if I had behaved myself and stuck with the tracking and paid attention to what I was putting in my face, I may have actually stayed put or even, dare I say it, lost weight! (Gasp!)
So after doing some reflecting this weekend I decided, I really need to get serious. Not just for my sister, but because I need to help me. Obesity runs in my family like blue eyes or large noses run in other peoples families. I have seen the health problems and the dissipation of quality of life first hand. I don't want that for me and I don't want that for my kids.
I want to run and play and have the energy to keep up with my kids and grand kids (if I have any) I want to live a long healthy life span without the pain and misery I watched some of my relatives suffer through.
So from here on out I am going to get serious. I am going to hold myself accountable and do everything I can to succeed on this plan. This up and down business has been quite discouraging but it has been my own doing. I know I can loose on this plan. I mean I lost 5 pounds my first week because I was committed. and then I got lazy.
No more. From here on out its crunch time. Okay maybe not crunches I hate those things, they kill my back, but you know what I mean!
So let's get serious and do this!